i fear i can’t do this
it’s gone on to long
the attempt to start
kyboshed each time
“don’t talk”
and she does
each note of hers feeds
the poison she claims to detest
i don’t want to be here
it’s horrible
the only time i’ve felt
this much emotional pain
is mourning a close death
i’ll have to wait to calm
before I can step
onto the bridge
through the arctic
to new york