angst cycle (iii) — [E] (i)

last week
late night pub chat
before the crash

her eyes were warm
i could have tried the touch
she might have shied
she might not

she’s said i don’t excite
i didn’t have the confidence
to touch to play
to excite
that’s my fault

but in the past
when she’s rang her female call
i didn’t have the confidence
to reply
but i tried to talk
another day
to discuss
to resolve
to solve
but she’d deny
deny
deny
deny

i tried
i tried
i tried
i tried

i tried to solve the confidence
i tried
i tried
i tried

this communication crash
that’s her fault

later
well
quite a lot
it’s mine