angst cycle (iii) 
[ƞ] (i)
the sadness is deepening 
why
 
yes 
we had great companionship 
but when she made her months of move 
she was attached 
and had i responded then 
she made it clear 
i would have been 
a temporary entertainment 
her attached guy 
was moving back 
into her world 
a month or two later
 
all 
for me 
unhandle 
—able
 
now 
if by some magic luck 
she changed her heart 
and came to me 
it could only be 
for a while 
she doesn’t stick
 
i came across some research 
that showed a generalism 
intelligent women are disloyal 
stupid ones stick 
apart from wondering about definitions 
and doubting the reporting
 
i can’t handle treachery 
i won’t accept treachery 
i won’t chase it either 
hence my non–response 
when it was offered
 
i don’t think 
i want to chase 
an idiot 
what to talk about 
between the sweat 
i don’t think 
i could be happy 
with treachery
 
it is the lucky few 
who are incapable 
of being poisoned 
by love
 
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