angst cycle (iii) 
[W] (i)
keeping myself very busy 
more than normal 
and normal is work work 
and art work 
with a couple of meetings a week
 
but i usually take 
an hour a day or so 
to potter
 
not now 
work work 
art work 
it’s aoû 
no meetings
 
no time 
for the pot
 
par example 
maintenant 
je retour a la royaume uni 
pour mon ordinateur squalide
 
les heures dans les trains 
j’écrire
 
it’s better than the sadness 
mourning loss
 
not of had 
& never did 
not even of if 
too many denials 
just loss
 
part of the sadness 
i fell for it again 
not the most 
though
 
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