angst cycle (iii) — [W] (i)

keeping myself very busy
more than normal
and normal is work work
and art work
with a couple of meetings a week

but i usually take
an hour a day or so
to potter

not now
work work
art work
it’s aoû
no meetings

no time
for the pot

par example
maintenant
je retour a la royaume uni
pour mon ordinateur squalide

les heures dans les trains
j’écrire

it’s better than the sadness
mourning loss

not of had
& never did
not even of if
too many denials
just loss

part of the sadness
i fell for it again
not the most
though