angst cycle (iii) — [X] (i)

i’m failing badly at the cut
i find myself sending innocuous emails
information about irrelevances that aren’t
interesting stuff that might be
worse she’s replied
and actually

this isn’t working
the emotion is still too strong
i fear i might have to
resort to ovid
his advice

so i must decide
whether to offer
the absence of ovid

i’m hugely confident
if we communicate
beyond the formal coldness
there’ll be intensity
in conflict

in anything without
vision and smell
it’ll be battle

with vision and smell
it’ll be war
or glorious peace

but i’m confident
she’ll not accept
beyond the formal coldness

ovid is starting himself
without me saying engage