angst cycle (iii)
[F] (iv)

at night
even if i’m working
to hide
it is deeply sad
i am

no drinking now
i’m sleeping alone

i’ve lost what should have been a life
a unity of minds
through circumstance
and my own failure
to engage
when engage was needed

ok i might have failed to persuade
when persuade was needed

but i’ve lost
what should have been a life
a unity of minds
when engage was needed
i was silent
riding the conversation
not digging up the niceties
blustering the otherness
forcing the discussion
to persuade
to persuade

i lost

i am deeply sad
i’ve lost