angst cycle (iii)
[G] (ii)

why no anger
at the prime cause

first of all
these emotions
are like rivers

when she felt
something like this way
for me
two years ago
i hardly noticed
yeah yeah poetic justice

secondly
being angry
because
when she did create this poison
when she was attached
and i could not respond
because she was attached

that’s my failing
my blockage
feeling anger at her
for her instinctive strategy
because my instinctive strategy
was not compatible
would be insane

this history’s the cunt
not the humanity
that’s just a bloody pain

an anger
at natural love
that you can’t accept
is really an anger
against yourself
an anger i do not feel
i am what i am
she is what she is
the history’s the cunt

PS
later
the anger came