angst cycle (iii)
[β] (v)

seeing
so many other guys
attached

the common factor
for me
is obviously
me

i’m not here
by choice
i’d much prefer
to be attached
all the usual reasons
family kids
i’d love kids

but i am what i am
i am here
i have to live with it

but

i

still

don’t

understand

the

invitation

then

rejection

it makes no sense

what it is
that is so hated
that women
want to cause me
all

this

pain

i don’t understand
i don’t understand
i have never understood

it makes no sense