angst cycle (iii) — [f] (ii)

i can’t stop the
tension attention
being drawn
tight drawn

but i can stop
any reaction action
keep the silence
fairly strong

when the
poisonous insanity
was screaming too high
to stop
the reaction i got
was negative
or neutral
never positive

so letting the
tension attention
retrench recause
is nuts
just nuts

the pain is dull now
i want it less
only less

letting the
tension attention
would only strengthen
the pain
all the nos
that would come
would strengthen
the pain
all the nos

so it shall fade
the stupidity
the emotional stupidity
it presents
will fade
like the snow