angst cycle (iii) — [F] (v)

after a year
hanging on the chance
of email

to rob myself
to break

go through the door
i’ve slammed in my face
i’m unlocking the door
i’ve locked the door
i’ve hidden the key
it’s in my hand
go through the door

is that noise
other side
shuffling
breathing

no
i’m inventing the noise
i’ve slammed in my face
with reason